April begins. I BEGIN

I was gonna leave just the pictures and no writing, however it'll be a bit hard to understand where all this is coming from. 

This is my 2014 diary , which guides you through the year by making you develop the parts of yourself, you never knew existed. 

Sorry that it starts in April for you to see, but I wasn't sure whether to put it on or not.

It's just amazing. 

January was for Experimenting 

February was for being Passionate 

March was for being Healthy

April is to be Fascinated. 

Love and peace

x

Internetting.

Not much talking. Photos will speak loudly.
Today's search engine stuff.

Things like that tell others so much about you.

Ps: I havent forced any websites or images, songs - anything into this post , only for the society's likings.

Love and peace ♥

My room will tell.

As Im waiting to officially start my internship in the showroom, I wanted to do a different kind of posts, to get into the style of writing mostly everyday and not just updating my blog whenever I do a new editorial,etc.

You'll have a lot more of me.

This post; I wanted to share a bit of 'me' with you all...show you bit by bit of who I am.
All you've been seeing lately was my work and even though my work is 'me' in some percentage; obviously its not ME.

I'll start off today by showing you my room at night. What I set up my room like and what kind of atmosphere I love, want and surround myself with.

♡♡♡♡

Sitting in the dark, the light is flickering. While staring at myself in the mirror, I think of how far I've come already. How much I have achieved. I look at my turqoise walls and feel the energy coming from them. Energizing, motivating and inspiring. Thats what I need, constantly.

Tommorow's Mother's Day; gifts are prepared. Flowers are hidden. PRECIOUS ♡

INTERNING- CHANGE OF PLANS?

Why does money always have to play such a big part in life?

I know people say it doesn't, but it really does and there's nothing

we can do.

I can't live in London, things have turned out differently on me

and have turned their back on me.

I've been offered an internship in Manchester and I'm still hoping

to work with the amazing Jeff Hahn, whenever he wants me to!

It looks like things have turned out to be even better.

I have two internships in the end.

I was so confused all that time after everything went down the drain for me.

My room is such a mess, I really need to clean it up, as my brain is now 

mostly organized.

Whenever I'm confused or things don't go the way I wanted them to, 

my room reflects my state of mind.

I'm starting my internship at a beautiful showroom in Manchester next week!

It'll definitely be different , however I see it as gaining more experience

in something you didn't focus on so much before...

Love and peace 

x

POLE.

finally done some work to show you all, not some posts about 'music I listen to' and 'films I've seen'.

this one is one I had to do for uni.

I had to develop a concept from something I am crazy about and just something I love

I had a few things but the one that caught everyone's attention was pole dancing.

I love pole dancing.

if it wasn't for my friend who got me into it, I wouldn't have done it . ever

(sorry about no capital letters but I can't be bothered)

so, I developed the 'pole' concept and then I had to turn it into a zine

jesus, I don't know why I've decided to shoot a girl this time

I think it was because of the concept

I'm not so good with girls, it's too forced.

anyway, shot some stuff to represent 'pole' in a new light.

something people haven't seen before.

it's not stripping all the time, you know.

first shots went ...

horrible

then I decided to reshoot over one night, just before the hand in

I'm not gonna sit there and submit something I hate

So I reshot and it turned out better, however still not 'me' enough.

you know , it wasn't like my 'you're stupid' shoot. 

I loved that one.

I still like some of the shots from the 'pole' one.

probably just the ones I shot on film, without a model.

I had to shoot on a digital, jesus christ. 

hate digital arghhhhh

the outcome just doesn't satisfy me at all

anyway, I'll stop writing like crazy because I know you lot can't be arsed reading it anyway.

PS: I don't think about what I write, I just transfer my thoughts onto this blog. anyone offended, I apologize.

love xx

Listen in 2014.

I was thinking of what to do this post about.

I had no clue.

I did a post on 'my fave music at the moment' last year. I'll do an update now.

It's more of 'what's trending in music atm'.

Obviously, I'll post the things I like. Otherwise it won't be my blog.

Check out the music. 

love 

xx

1) SKINNY GIRL DIET.

2) KALI UCHIS

3) ANGEL OLSEN 

4) DUM DUM GIRLS

You're Stupid.

I've just realized that I haven't even uploaded my shoot which I did as if I was shooting for Purple.

Maaan, long time.

I'll upload it now. 

It's cool.

So it's called 'you're stupid' and it's taken from my personal emotions, feelings and the relations and communications between me and my family.

Said too much already. Whatever, imagine someone's calling you an idiot and tells you you're stupid all the time.

Bye.